What If You're Unable To Do Something That You Love The Most?

2nd post of the day. It's just a question, but it makes you wonder a lot. 

A very clear scenario had just happened. 

In today's headlines, the whole world was very surprised to know that Tiger Woods had been involved in an accident near his house in Florida. His SUV hit a tree and a fire hydrant, and was saved by his wife using a golf club.

Tiger Woods, as we knew, has earned more than U$100 million yearly by endorsements and contests. He's an ambassador for sports brands like Nike and Gatorade, and Electronic Arts (EA) even made a golf game after his name.

And he earned them by relying on his pure, physical strength. A good golfer must have a pair of good legs, strong arms and a clear vision. Imagine what if he has fatal injuries that may affect his golfing career?

It makes me think about passive incomes.

Once again, ask yourself,  
"What If You're Unable To Do Something That You Love The Most?"

This Holidays is Screwed

Lord, please let them know that I'm trying to find my identity as I will be ready to enter the society within 2 years. Speak to them so that they can understand what I feel, as I cannot find the right words to argue for my rights to be myself and how I want to live my life. Bless us, Lord. Let them understand me. 


In Christ's name I pray, Amen.

Oh ya, my chances to go to Sydney is likely to be cancelled. But, it's alright, I still got chance to join in the CNY reunion. Too bad Yen Ching has to celebrate hers in West Malaysia. I understand the reason why we are unable to go (I won't share it here), but what makes me frustrated is we missed 2 opportunities to go there already. WTH.

My photography project, meanwhile, though under sketches of plannings, is already been affected by the crisis. I don't want to spend my holidays 100% at home. I don't want to live such a lifeless holiday. Please larr, let me get connected with my companions and the outside world more often. Please don't spoil me and drain my profound identity away.

Damn, I felt du lan.

Koo Kien Keat- Tan Boon Heong, For The Win xD

3rd post of the day :) Nothing wrong. It just shows that how sien I am at home.

After watching today's Astro Supersports coverage on the China Masters Men's Doubles Finals, I feel I wanna comment about my favourite badminton pairs - Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong. 

I tell you, this pair never fail to amaze me, even if they lose in a match. Because their playing style not only create humours occasionally whenever they tackle their opponents by changing pace, they are really good thrillers. Sometimes, they just bring you into intense heat while they themselves are under pressure. For example, that final match vs the Korean pair Jun Jae Sung- Lee Yong Dae. Even when they knew that the Koreans won the match point, they still gained 4 more points before the opponents won. Too bad they lost 21-19.


And they have been impressing me without fail ever since the 2006 Thomas Cup. They never disappointed me even if they lose. I enjoy watching them playing. 


Shine for Malaysia! xD

You Just Imagine...

Put yourself into my shoes and imagine....

When everything doesn't goes according to what you want?

When everything that is vital happens to be at the wrong time.

When unexpected stuffs emerged from the midst of nowhere.

When you begin to be bounded by stuffs that slowly drains you and yourself

And worse, 

When your closest companions are far away from you.

One word. FML. 

Now I understand why people complain about their lives whenever something goes terribly bad, as I don't really like to rant. Whenever this happen, how will you manage to go through it? Prayer is not enough. You need actions. Yet, both elements aren't enough when there's no miracles.

Birthday Tribute : Fadhlan

Well, since you made me a blog post of me during the birthday (I remembered the "drunken" face ah), why not I do this in return? :)

Haha.....

Anyway, 27 November is the birthday of a long time friend of mine, Fadhlan. I knew him since 2004 when he first came into class 3A. And yeah, he was used to be one of my good competitors (I know last time I very kiasu one :P) in academics in high school, but he made himself even better in the Berlian eras.

And all I can say that he's full of humour and he is a very independent guy, throughout these 5 years of knowing each other. Sorry larr if I kacau you too often, but I can't help it owhh..haha....He's favourite kind of music is R&B/ Hip-hop (e.g. Pitbull :) and K-pop, especially from BoA. 

And the good thing is, he'll be back to Tawau this weekend! xD But I don't think I can play pool with you very often. Haiz...

Happy 20th birthday :) Now, you can go clubbing more edi xD 

Balik Tawau, belanja makan ah! xD

Picture taken during the outing in July (during the orientation days).

In Tawau, At Last

2 days ago, after 4 months under the 1st UniSA degree course, I am finally BACK! Returning to Tawau is nice, but there are somehow stuffs that I don't like that overwhelms me, if you get what I mean. 

However, I won't be updating a lot since I'm at home. As you can see here, this picture is not labeled as this laptop doesn't have Photoshop for it. I'm not sure if I manage to bring in the installer.

Anyway, I have to pray hard that my Tawau photography project is still on. I don't want to be bounded by family environment alone. I hope I can do something that I want in this holidays, and not to be locked in a cage. 

The planning stages are still under commence, where should I start first?  

See you in 3 months time, Kuala Lumpur :)

2012

I know it's late, but at least I can share my reviews :) 

I expected 2012 is about the real End of Days, as the trailer had stated. But, if you look at the storyline carefully, it's like a modern version of Noah's Ark being retold. What's being funny is like the passengers for the ark were "genetically selected". Like for example, in the Bible, Noah was asked to select the male and female of every animal species. Here, I saw people like a pair of Arabs, Caucasians, Asians, etc entering the Ark. 


The 2012 phenomenon is based on a series of facts and fiction. The idea of the 21/12/12 doomsday is first told by the ancient Mayan calendar which ended on that date. At the same time, alongside with Freemason symbols and Nostradamus' predictions, this date marked the Earth had been positioned in the Great Alignment of the universe. From then, the Earth will collapse due to the crust (see this >link< to understand the Crust Displacement Theory more) 


I do not really believed that the year that we graduate in our UniSA degrees would be the day we all die. But, I feel that something else will be happening that day. There were so many films that already showed that the 9/11 attacks would happen, e.g. Terminator 2 - there's a scene where the entrance of the tunnel was written "Caution 9/11", as well as the "Illuminati" eye-in-the-pyramid symbol. 


This is an excerpt in the movie explaining the 2012 myth by Charlie, a character who is depicted like a Hippy/ end time pessimist. 




And the film has humourous scenes as well. I like the Ukrainian fella the most, though he's not a good character in the film. 


"Everyone, BE QUIET! Engine, start." And the Bentley suddenly was on. :) after Curtis struggled so long to start the car. 


And another thing I noticed is the American politicians' similarity. When the California governor spoke during the beginning of the major earthquake, I noticed that the English slang sounded like Arnold Schwartzeneggar's a lot. And the President of USA is an African American, though he doesn't look like President Obama. 


I did not watch it alone. I went to the cinema with Bong, Huei Ling and Thomas. Tu lah, Miki and Cynthia did not reply me. Both of you should join in the fun. 


I think I spent a lot today. Bought a new set of GP rechargeable batteries and a RM 35 cleaning brush for my lens. Now, I'm saving money for today as I'm buckling for home today. 


After the 2012 show, we went for Japanese sushi. And after that we wandered around Sunway. I took my chance to rejuvenate my photography skills. It's been 1 week I never touched my camera due to the assignments. 







Huei Ling, I should have ask you to move a bit to the front :( 


12 more hours to the airport! And yeah, see you UniSA coursemates after 3 months. I'll promise you quality photos from Tawau and Sydney xD 

Not All Old Wounds Are Healed.

Yes, I confessed that I was a hot-tempered kid who went way too much and over the limit just because of some "insults" thrown and initiated by someone. 

And I promised myself that I must change for today. I'm glad that I recovered from my failure to express myself when someone brought me to my limits. At the same time, some old friends who were affected by my temper became good friends with me today. I'm happy. :)


But there are still things that made me mad, some stuffs that made me felt unforgivable to. Sometimes, it's hard to forgive and to bury the past. 


And upon graduation from high school, something also screwed me up. 


I tell you the tale of that fella. Before SPM happened, we're nice to each other as we chat during tuition, as we're from different classes. 


Until the turning point happened. 


I remembered that MSN conversation very well. He spammed at me, and then provoked me until I just blocked him. I thought it's just someone hacking his account, but he continued hitting me as if he knew who I was that time. 


The evidence became clearer as he began to ignore me during a gathering. And he became more like a bastard when I met him in another later event of my chapter of life. He was behaving like an arrogant fag. 


And now, there will be a reunion coming in. I might have the chance to see him as well. 


I hope everything goes fine during the event. Yes, in the past I did made accidentally made some enemies in the process of "defending" myself from being teased. But many had re-accepted me, just that not all the old wounds are healed. 


P.S - Kinda sad, because among all my ex-5 Berlian comrades who were studying outside M'sia, I think only Fadhlan and I might made it for the reunion. 


To any of the 5B fellas who are right here around KL, I wanna ask if everything's okay, can we have a gathering in Quattro @ Jln Ampang, KLCC next year around April/ May? 

The Question About Decisions and Rules

Just to practice what I'd learned in CRR (Communication: Rhetoric and Reasoning) this semester. I went across this gaming article entitled "Uniform Are Relics: Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2", written by G. Christopher Williams, most based on the game's 3rd mission, "No Russian".  Ms. Nat should read this xD


Link to the article: http://www.popmatters.com/pm/post/116433-uniforms-are-relics-call-of-duty-modern-warfare-2/

Do feel free to comment, but only with CONSTRUCTIVE messages. 

This is what he wrote about the mission: 

The Makarov mission, however, begins to challenge rules and boundaries with its content and much of that challenge lies in the mission briefings description of the events surrounding the mission.  It explains that in the current global political situation “Uniforms are relics.  The war rages everywhere, and there will be casualties.”  This reference to uniforms certainly informs about Makarov’s nature as an apolitical animal that is not affiliated with, not marked by the uniform of a citizen loyal to a particular national interest, but it also alludes to the situation that the player is about to experience, one that violates the “rules” and “boundaries” of a typical military FPS.

Spoiler of the mission begins here.



"No Russian" is a mission where you control the role of PRC Joseph Allen of the US Rangers, who went CIA undercover on Makarov under the name Alexei Borodin. He had to follow Makarov and his men to cause chaos in the Zarkhaev International Airport (fictional). Here, in this mission, you will (or may) have to either join in the "fun" killing hundreds of computer generated civilians for around 2 minutes before you enter the next phase of the game where you deal against real military force. Later on, after reaching to a transport, Makarov suddenly shoots you, letting the world to believe that the Americans initiated the massacre.


When I was playing that mission, as Makarov and his men began firing at the civilians, it made think twice on either to kill them, or just let the others kill them.


I know this situation is just a game, but would you be killing them in real life? I agree that this mission is disturbing as you're witnessing a massacre being reconstructed CGI style, though it won't impact you much when compared to a situation WHEN you're witnessing it in real life.


I later went on to Youtube and watch the videos on how others played the game. NOT ALL players kill the civilians, and everyone's discussing about the massacre issue.


And at the end of the game, you got shot by Makarov, as he knew that you are an undercover when you're following them for an inside job that makes Russia to attack the US. Well, as Christopher suggested, you blindly follow the rules just to know that you got killed at the end. The uniforms made you feel bounded by the rules by the people you're affiliated.


Yeah, to this extent I agree with Christopher. Gamers tend to follow rules as we (I'm as a gamer as well)  just blindly follow them without knowing the outcome. But, it's time to do a little bit of reasoning and logics and not ignorance and arrogance to argue on such a topic.


It also reminded me of a study between rules and boundaries by Stanley Milgram, or the Milgram experiment (link), as Milgram wants to examine the willingness of people to obey if things don't seem to go right, for example, if you are to torture a man when you're kind hearted. 

If at any time the subject indicated his desire to halt the experiment, he was given a succession of verbal prods by the experimenter, in this order:^[1]

1. Please continue.
2. The experiment requires that you continue.
3. It is absolutely essential that you continue.
4. You have no other choice, you must go on.

In this case, you're HAVE to witness and joining in the gore and violence, and at the same time, being undercover to FOLLOW Makarov and his men. 


Now, let's go on to real life. 


It seems like most of us are living under a system that has its own rules and boundaries and everyone of us just accepts and proclaims that this world is what it is right now. 


Of course, like it or not, you must follow the rules, study, get a job, earn your income, pay your taxes, consume more and don't question authorities. 


As long there's money and politics, we can't afford to be ethical, for there's corruption and greed for profits. People want more. 


And thus, all of us, regardless employees, employers and students, are forced into a rat race, running in the midst of scarcity, without knowing what is the truth. When you open your TV, you'll be hearing advertisements and news full of tragedies that may catch your attention. When you're eating outside, you don't know what food is really healthy, as long you care for what is tasty. When there's election, you just blindly vote for a stranger whom you do not know, and you have to judge his affiliates in order to trust him better. When there's crisis, you just complain with vulgarities. Some even march on the streets, waiting to be arrested and get beaten up by the riot police. 


This is life. Being bounded by an environment, created by people above the hierarchical pyramid. 


As I am learning Journalism and Communication right now, I begin to get exposed into the issues of censorship and fabrication, the "lies, damned lies, and statistics" issue, mainstream and alternative sources, etc. Well, journalism + public relations + advertising = LIES and PROPAGANDA. They're all meant for effective persuasion. 


I won't be criticizing too much as I tend to write lesser here. But, I hope you guys have an idea what the "No Russian" mission is really trying to say. Christopher is of course sharing his perspective of the mission. So, what's yours? 

The Long Week Is Over | CoD: Modern Warfare 2

I'd submitted my last Assign IT soft copy at 4.37 p.m. Australian time and the final hard copy several minutes later. And that's the end of the misery! xD 

But today, to me, is not a happy day, because: 

1. Due to the fatigue, I am tired. 

2. Bong gave me the most humiliating pool game ever, with a thanks to Mei Fong who helped him shoot one of his balls in. =.= At least I learned something from him. He's good on judging where the cue ball lies after his shots. 

3. And during that freaking game, I hurt my waist. 

4. There were plans of watching 2012 and ice-skating, and they were cancelled? o.0 

and now...

My disc reader is such a haggard. It can't even transfer the COD: Modern Warfare 2 files properly. =.= 

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Anyway, I'd finished the game in someone's desktop 2 nights ago. I really love the new guns of America, like the Bushmaster ACR (originally known as the Magpul Masada project) and the FN SCAR-H. Sooner or later, the M16A4 and the M4A1 carbine will be replaced by these new weapons. 

Why replace them? Discovery Channel said that the 5.56mm calibre does not have the impact though having precision. 

And this new version do have more guns. But, I guess the developers focused more on the bullpup rifles such as the Israeli TAR-21, FN F2000, Walther WA2000 sniper, Steyr AUG and the FAMAS. They even have riot shields in it!  

This Modern Warfare 2 is really far more better than the 1st one. But sometimes, I felt hard to the 2 playable characters who were killed by the antagonists - The CIA double agent and "Roach", especially when Roach and Ghost were brutally killed by Gen. Shepherd. 

My favourite characters? They're Captain "Soap" MacTavish and Captain Price, whom I thought had died in the last mission of MW1. 

"Soap" :)

Last but not least, I really love the Hans Zimmer soundtracks, especially the part when you control Pvt. Ramirez who defends America from the Russians. 

Till then :) 

Music and Its Direction

While awaiting for Bong to return, haha....I am suppose to prepare my mind for the final CCS report. May be doing on blogging or social networking, but sine I got my direction, I resorted to blogging!


Anyway, let's talk about the direction of music.


*Nothing wrong to repost this picture, since it's my own masterpiece xD 

Now, people who are music followers, regardless mainstream MTV and Channel V, or underground lovers, I want you to reflect on how music evolves from the past to the present.


When I was playing Fallout 3, I listened to a bunch of historic oldies that were famous in the 1950s. My most favourite two songs were "Civilization" and "Easy Living". Well, they were catchy in their years, but still...


Do you feel the difference of the music themes?


Regardless genres, music really have changed.


Let's listen to this song.


Billie Holiday's Easy Living


Beach Boys - I Get Around (1960s)


ABBA - Dancing Queen

And then starting the 1980s, you felt something is different. All the rock songs, gangsta hip hop, heavy metal coming in, especially this controversial song:



Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven
(Some critics said that this song has a satanic meaning when it's played backwards.) 


Staircase to Heaven is one of my favourite evergreen song. But I show this example due to the topic of my post.


And today, you'll mainly hear about sex, drugs, alcohols, murder, hate, and broken love. I'm sorry that I may not provide a clearer example, but please just reflect this question to yourselves: Why music had diverted into this direction?


My mother said that artists in the past sang happily in their MVs, and she felt weird with all the sad and angry faces of the singers today in their MVs. Such good notice! Are you guys aware of that? :)


Well, listen to them yourselves on today's music themes.


Lady Gaga's Love Game
"I wanna take a ride on your disco stick" 
You know what the theme is :)


Britney Spears - If You Seek Amy
Mention the chorus title fast and you'll get another meaning 


50 Cent - Piggy Bank
Murder and money

Another sex themed song
Ying Yang Twins - Wait (The Whisper Song)
Try singing that to a girl and you'll get sued for sexual harassment :P



And worst

I read some articles about the New World Order with suspected songs of demon worshipping. But, anyway, 1 thing is for sure: 


Commercialized music is evolved for profits. =.=


Time to rack CCS report up. 

Really Must Lose Weight!

This was me in year 2006. (Form 5)




My latest facebook profile picture (The current me). It's not about angles, for sure I'm fatter than before. Just notice the difference on my neck width. lol....


And dang! I really must lose weight. 


When it comes to shopping for clothes, I always tend to rely on girls to help me choose the right outfits. Last year, I bought something under my 2 beloved cousins' suggestions, Melissa and Kar May. 


This time, I got extra advises from Thomas and Huei Ling. One of them is to do sit ups. Ohkay, my stomach really needs to be shrinked. I lost my 6 packs that once existed during my high school days. :(


The "weight gain" issue first hit me when Elaine said that I looked chubby in MSN 2 years ago. And slowly, I got criticized by my family members and slowly, my ex-classmates. Some people still said that I'm still fine, but to me, IT's NOT FINE. Some BMI readings even told me I'm almost going to be overweight.


Must discipline myself already. 


Time to do POJ. I'm way behind schedules. 

2 New Games To Be Anticipated

*credits from Flickr. 

* credits from thatvideogameblog.com

One had been released last week, while another one will be released 1 day after the PR1 and CRR deadline. 


But I anticipated L4D2 more than COD: Modern Warfare 2. I saw the Youtube clips of both gameplay scenes and both are amazing. 


But for now, focus on your final 1st semester tasks. Play later. 


Updates coming soon (after this Friday, I guess). 

Colour Temperature

White Balance 4500K


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White balance 2200K

From my friend's balcony :) Just trying out the colour settings.


By just judging the quality of my recent photos here, you'll understand that everyone around me, including me myself, are all busy. 2 deadlines appear at the same day, while the other 2 follows by on Wednesday and Friday. After that, it's 2012 and a dinner together!


Speaking about colour acronym and temperatures, I really regret that I don't take serious attention during my high school Art Visual classes. It is because I really hate drawing. I simply draw as if I don't care how much I will score for that subject until Form 3, where I tried my best not to fail the subject. 


At least everything is over. I never know Arts Visual is useful by the time I have a camera, specially in terms of lighting and colours. 

Taxi Blues

A common taxi fare from Suriamas to our LCS campus (Bali) costs RM 6. Keep this in mind, as I continue to tell the real tale. 


This afternoon, I paid with a different price. 


Thank God I found an honest and polite taxi driver. It was raining cats and dogs this afternoon and I took his taxi to the college as I'm late for POJ class today. Because he is new to the Sunway area, I had to guide him to the college myself. 


When I reached the destination, the total fare costed me RM 3.80 :) 


See the difference? It's a RM 2.20 gap. That's because he's using the meter. 


The last POJ quiz has ended. 4 more deadlines, 4 more nightmares. 

"Berat Angkat Kaki" (Hard To Lift Yourself To Act)

Being straightforward can mean 2 things:


Straightforward by words - The ability to speak out anything according to your own will regardless other people's thoughts about you. 


Straightforward by action - The ability to take action without any signs of hesitations. 


Just finished chating with somebody in order to find out new places for my next room. I hope everything's better when compared to now. Some of you might know the reason why I want to move. Let it be, kay? 


But, everytime before the moving season comes, I tend to feel held back by something. It's so difficult to express. It's like the same old feeling moments before I left Ridzuan Condominium during New Year this year. 


Maybe it's because I dislike changes. For sure, 2009 was a very different year when compared to 2008 and the previous years. 


These changes still affect me today. 


I decided to rent privately after staying under the college hostel for 2 years. It's been a nice experience staying with them. The reason why I tend to do so is to save money for the family. I felt that I'm becoming a liability than an asset. 


But, one of the drawbacks of this option, though I'll be having lower rates to pay, I might have to face some cunning landlords. (I'm sorry to my KL friends, but this is a fact on what I'm going to say later). 


Well, I feel that most of the city people are fake (plastic, as people used to say) and profit-minded as the office politics and stress in the employment world here are hyped up and most of them here are individualistic. A little bit of misconduct, especially while driving, will cause enough flame throughout the road. When it comes to politics, they will go on to RPK's Malaysia Today, Patrick Teoh's "Niamah" blog, Malaysiakini, etc. and spam rudely whenever something goes wrong. Some Chinese would rather support Namewee's arrogant complaints to the government and even recently, TNB. 


I'm glad that my West Malaysian coursemates are all friendly. Please maintain your kind attitudes when you're working, okay? :) 


Now, do you have an idea on how the attitudes of some of the landlords here? 


I'd heard enough of these people. Some of them will treat their tenants as if they are their slaves. Some will try to con young people like us. Some will underestimate you. Even if I request to find a Christian landlord, they may also be fakers, because Christians are also sinners like everybody else. 


Well, there are some certain cases where you have to be "berat mulut" to rescue yourself from being criticized by your friends behind your back. And also, there are sometimes you have to hesitate yourselves before you act. The future is blur ahead. Only God will know the direction you're heading. 


We want changes, but we're actually fear of changes. 

Zynga's Mafia Wars

It's time for a pit stop while awaiting for energy and stamina to be charged up. 


Just wanna share to you my best and most addictive Facebook game so far, Zynga's Mafia Wars. I think this app is Zynga's most active updated game ever. We have 3 stages currently in play - New York, Cuba and Moscow. Later this Christmas, MW will be having a new location to play - Bangkok. 


I bet my real Facebook friends wouldn't like the fact seeing the Body Count notices in their Home page. Sorry for that, but I can't help it. 


The best way for me, in order to level up quickly, you have to focus more on Energy and Stamina. However, when fighting, you may lose the edge to other players that are having more Attack and Defense. 


Hit points are not important in many cases, as you can recharge your HP in the Hospital. Let's just say, if you have $10M and you forgot to put them into your bank, and someone suddenly attacks you from nowhere when you're not online. If you have more hit points, that means you'll lose more money, as you keep on pumping money to your opponent until you got iced. Being iced earlier is better than losing more money. 

So, what makes a game app in Facebook fun? :)

1. It delights you. First, the game app must catch your attention and if you feel that you love it, you'll tend to send some invitations for your friends to play together. 


2. When many of your friends are playing it. Pet Society and Restaurant City are good examples around me. I remembered when I was influenced to play Bejeweled Blitz to compete with some of my Foundation coursemates during the last sem of the FICM course. Well, the best I can identify are Christine and Joanne. 


3. When the whole world plays it, like what Mafia Wars is going right now. Don't believe me? Go into the game, register, send somebody in your "Fight" list into the Hitlist/ Bounty list, and within nanoseconds, someone took the bounty you'd set. 


Currently, I'm having 366 members in my Mafia crews. If you're seeing this and you need crews, don't hesitate to add me in Facebook. :) Don't worry, I'll be trying my best looking at help notifications if you send one. 

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Taken outisde Faith Christian Centre (FCC) after the Saturday night service. 


Last, but not least, this is the 800X600 version of my first photo on the FCC interior :) 


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Have a happy weekend. 

Unemployment

Read this link: http://money.cnn.com/2009/11/06/news/economy/jobs_october/index.htm?postversion=2009110611



It's been funny that the world (most of us) is very aware that we're living under a money oriented system that causes us unnecessary troubles and even death, and still we succumbed to it. 


Why we want to continue to allow ourselves to go under scarcity? We're all humans and each and everyone of us deserves the same standard of living together. 


If you agree with me to this extent so far, do read this: 
http://www.thevenusproject.com/a-new-social-design/essay#the


This is written by Jacque Fresco, founder of the Venus Project, industrial designer and social engineer. 


In a world where 1% of the population owns 40% of the planet's wealth…in a world where 34,000 children die every single day from poverty and preventable diseases, and where 50% of the world's population lives on less than 2 dollars a day… one thing is clear:
Something is very wrong.


- Excerpts from Zeitgeist: Addendum 

Thanks For The "Memories"

You imagine you're in this situation, when:

You are unable to sleep for 2 nights chasing the deadline which is dead near.
You do not eat or drink for more than 10 hours as you are constantly staring at your Microsoft Word and Google Chrome
You yelled in distress after more than 10 attempts doing your voiceover
You feel like you want to punch someone
You feel like you wanna hurl your laptop whenever it lags when you're doing your assignments
You become a foul mouth when something goes wrong, ESPECIALLY THE INTERNET IN M'SIA
or worse
The Internet site that is vital at that moment suddenly gone problematic


Thank God it's over. 


Or is it?

Just To Keep This Page Alive....

The first view everytime I wake up.


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Smile, kitty :)


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2nd edit of it :)


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Anyway, tell you what makes me happy and sad lately:


Happy, because:
1. I know that I won't walk alone in the midst of academic pains.
2. A new grocery shop is opened on Suriamas, 2nd floor.
3. Got another Distinction in POJ and a high Credit (arrgh!) in PR1.
4. New inspirations for the Monkey Majik critique.


Sad, because:
1. I found out that one of my former crushes finally had a boyfriend, it's nothing but wrong timing. Still a bitter fact to be swallowed, though. It's a very long story. 
2. Academic pains- 5 deadlines in 2 weeks.
3, No longer flying to Melbourne. We'll fly all the way to Sydney only @ Feb. Dang!
4. I screwed up in a negotiation just now, which may affect my future.


Life still goes on, right? 

Recovered. But Where's The Mojo???

Thank God for sending a few of my friends with the chattings. Boy, I recovered from the feeling of insecurity. 


But, how am I going to continue my assignments? CCS, CRR and POJ o.0 


By the way, just now in Facebook, I tried an edited photo of Diane :) and though some of the other viewers like that photo, she herself wasn't satisfied. Fadhlan even gave suggestions, thank you ya :) Nevermind, our School of Hospitality taught me a quote: The customers are always correct. 


Now, you be the judge. 


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To me, it's okay, just that the background needs improvement. 


I don't think I'm ready for my little project in Tawau yet :( Haiz....

3 Weeks Later....

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It's been awhile I did not blog a thing about Tawau. In fact, the last time I blogged about my hometown was around 3 months ago. Nostalgic feelings begin to overwhelm me, as I know I'm approaching my new subchapter of my life. Like it or not, there are winds of changes that we have to succumb.


I can't wait to learn more from my uncle if I get back there. Photography became my unleashed inner strength ever since I got the D80. Though 70% of the photos taken are by Minh (lolx), at least I learn one or two elements from him. I don't think I'll keep all of them, I hope we can have one last class photo by the end of this sem.


Things change months by months. People begin to treat me either for the better, or for the worse at the same time. Because of these changes, I felt very insecure. I don't know what will happen next in the future. I'd experienced this a lot of times, where a group of friends (with me in it) treat their members differently over time. Sometimes, they treat A better, suddenly he/she was outshined after a moment, then I heard gossips about everyone else. It may happen to me, and sometimes I felt it happened. 


I tend to be very bounded with the people I'm with. If you're in the same shoes with me, I guess you understand what I mean. 


To those who like to judge me on whoever I am, I would like to give you these words of advice: 


Proverbs 9:12
"If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you; if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer."


I'm sorry to those who got hurt, if you don't think it's you whom I'm saying, you can ignore this, but siapa yang termakan cili, dialah yang terasa pedas (Whoever eats the chilli, he will feel spicy). 


I just want to say that I felt hurt by these changes. Maybe along the way I offended some of you people. I'm here to study for my dreams, not to make enemies. Please forgive me, as I'm not perfect in nature. 


Time to do CCS. You guys should start too :) 

Polarising Filters

Note: Viewer's discretion is advised. I'm just sharing in my blog. 


A DSLR camera is like a weapon system. Well, a modern rifle can be assembled with a silencer, a combat scope, a bayonet, or a grenade launcher, and with this feature you can even change the role of the rifle - from standard to a machine gun/ sniper rifle. 

The same thing goes to the DSLR camera. Just that they're not lethal. 

A DSLR camera can be fitted with an external flash, a lens (a MUST, without it the camera won't work), memory card, tripod, monopod, batteries, intervalometer, etc. Here, I'm gonna share to you about filters. Since the lens costs thousands of dollars, you need a filter to protect the lens surface at all times from scratches and dusts. Basically, you need to get a UV filter. 


Now, about polarising filters. 


If you are a scenery/landscape type of photographer, you really need this filter. Usually, in landscape photos, you might dislike the image quality of the skies, as you may also face hazy environment at the same time. 


The filter is made with a very special material using the principles of wavelength in lights.  Just see for yourself. :) 


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See? Well, there are 2 types of polarising filters. First is the linear type, while the second is the circular PF. Usually, photographers will go for the circular PF, (short form = CPF) as linear PFs tend not to compensate with the camera's white balance system. Furthermore, with the CPF, you can adjust the filter settings according to the way you want. 


Prices of the CPF can ranged around RM 110- RM 260+ 


Basically, the CPF has 3 roles: 


1. Filter out the hazy environment for a clear landscape scene. 
2. Making the skies look blue and crystal clear
3. Taking better shots through glass surface. 


You can help me add up the roles :) 


I don't really have the time to demonstrate as I'll be getting busy with college works (CCS especially =.= ) but these are my first pictures using my CPF. (Sorry, there were just a few clouds last week) If there's chance I'll show you clouds. 


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I learned the techniques of the CPF by this guy :) Hope it helps you more...